7/12/10

Boys like things that start with "B's"

Boys like,

Bitches

Barbies

and a battery operated voice

But i'm into Men

And men happen to like just a little bit more

Men are like M&Ms

So sweet inside their colors so vast

All together they stay forever with the lips of their choice

Men like it slow and easy

Men know how to please me

Because they're men

Men meet my expectations

Men make lifelong promises

MEN have no time for fakin'

The thickness 6/15/10

we have two things in common
the thickness of our brows
and the thickness of our hearts
we see what our bodies desire
and we feel too deeply about outcomes that may transpire

we're tenacious when it coms to letting go
we've wished we could hold our hearts all night
but some things we leave latent out of spite

6/15/10

no one ever taught me how to admire you

true story, i just do

in my words, in writing,

there are pieces of you

your stories of heartache and love

i fell for you,

though we never formally met

i know you're no longer on this earth

god would never love us enough to let us keep an angel like you

there are things i don't yet get

like why my hard times have to be so hard

why does my pain seep so deep?

the ways of the world have yet to elucidate this to me

but i'll get through, hopefully,

if not i'll still be happy to make it to you

in that place up high where your light really shines

where your divine nature is common

in heaven you'll be my husband

Day and night i'll lay next to you.

waking to a nightmare 6/14/10

its bad to wake up to screaming

especially when you just slept through a nightmare

it makes you never want to wake again

you close your eyes to hide

so no one knows what you've just witnessed

but it doesn't help

when you're scarred

and it scares you to see how real things have gotten

waking up to fighting causes more pain

more than a hand could cause

or the stab of a knife within

i stopped wanting to wake up

way back before i could ride in the front seat

sleeping on the pull out for fun

it gave me a memory that has become a lifestyle

Just as i fell, plunged, off that roller-coaster ride

my life has taken a turn

and i no longer wish, dream, or ponder

about life

Donations, handouts, gifts? 6/13/10

we are all given things for free

some we want, others we never notice

but what happens to those things?

why am i unable to give back this thing i never asked for?

Life...

i never wished before i was born

my life is not a dream

because it's nothing i'd want to have seen

can you take this back?

whoever you may be... God

allow me to say deuces to this

this unwanted, gift, is that what it is?

i would put cement to my hands before i put

them out to receive this

my blood could be of great use

if only it didn't fuel the things inside me

you can take it all back

since this present you gave me i do not worship

i'd give it up in a second, i hate heroes

i never asked for a gift, donations, hand out, or present

Life 6/13/10

life is what we make it

the product of raw passion

sweat

persistence

and climax

we mold it all just as we came together

the precautions we took we teach

life fails to serve as a fair warning

we must love to make life

but we have the choice to throw it away

we don't have to give a damn if it survives

so thats what it comes to

a little money here

some touching when and where we want it

but life serves no purpose

not after the passion's used to make it

6/12/10

I'd rather not....

Let you go in the heat of the moment

your warmth makes me feel safe

with you im not alone

I'd rather not...

see you close your eyes

because in them i see the morning light

you inspire me with bright hopes to go on

I'd rather not...

explain how good you make me feel

actions speak louder than words

if you wrap me up

my smile will explain to the world

our love!